Briefly Touching On Imposter Syndrome

So there’s this thing — and you probably know what thing I’m talking about– where as someone works on their craft over a period of time it may start to seem like they’ve stopped improving, or they may feel like they were never really doing a good job to begin with. They feel like they’ve been tricking people all this time. With this April marking my 2nd year of being with the store, I had started to feel that way with my knitting. “People coming in and asking me for help? I barely know anything oh no I’m going to mess things up ohnoohnoOHNO-“

Then one day I stumbled across the first project I ever made that wasn’t a garter stitch scarf hiding away amongst other old sample garments. It was the first time I learned how to purl and how to knit in the round. 

And OH BOY

Guys. 

No, I definitely know things and I just panic and doubt too much. Let me share this glorious first hat with you all.

It all seems well and good… but let’s take a look at that “ribbing”.

That  flawless K1xP1 ribbing.

 

Ah yes, that’s the good stuff.

 

Sometimes it’s good to dig out your old work to remind yourself that you have been improving and you do know what you’re doing. 

 

Written by Catherine Eason

4 Comments on “Briefly Touching On Imposter Syndrome

  1. This reminds me of my first hat as well. Nothing could make me part with it -mistakes and all. It was the First time I worked with double pointed needles. I did not exhale until I finished decreasing.

    • Double points were definitely terrifying to me way back then! In fact, I never even decreased for this hat, and I didn’t try learning to use DPNs until very late last year.

  2. The first sweater I knit, I didn’t understand the directions for ribbing and discovered moss stitch.

  3. Ha! This is a great way to point this out! I have caught myself being inwardly critical of several of the popular knitting podcasters lately for proudly showing their WIPs, gushing over how much they love them, pointing out all the mistakes they caught along the way but decided to leave because they can live with them, then gushing some more about their finished project. Your post reminds me that they too are learning as they go, and their enthusiasm for the yarn, the pattern, and the craft is really helping the industry.

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